Camino – Day 9

It’s the ninth day of walking

It’s a very early morning – we are out on the road before 6am. We are alert, we turn on out torches and look for the shell signs. The first eight kilometres are smooth, the air is crisp, and this certainly helps us move our feet faster. We have breakfast in a small garden of paradise where a kind dark-haired fairy reads our minds. I have learned to ask for coffee and orange juice in Spanish. I am very proud of that, and the locals seem to appreaciate it. A huge deep red sun is rising when we resume the walk. I wonder away in my own thoughts while walking until someone invisible takes my hand: ‘let’s walk together for a bit.’ Oh yes! My heart skips a beat. It’s been five years today since you left. A deep and pearcing ache passes through my body and finally finds its rest in the empty space in my heart. Thank Universe and thank you for our beautiful, deep and true friendship. Could I have known that when on my way to our meeting, carrying a whole load of folders and calculations, while taking a large step and falling over in fright and almost knocking you off too, reaching out my hand for a handshake…could I have known that a bit more than a year later we’d have become friends, support and a source of energy for each other?

That’s how we walked today – feeling, remembering…sometimes with a smile, other times with a tear.

As they say ‘time heals’, but it has left an emptiness. But today for the first time I felt that some colours are starting to appear there, just like green grass sprouts start growing after tortures of forest fires, they find their own place and beg to be looked after and cared for, not for the burnt land. I’ve stopped torturing myself for not answerning your phone call that morning, I let the sprouts grow. It’s time…Thank you for being, you will always stay in my heart. I hope you are doing well over there…over the rainbow.

But the Universe like to joke! We staying overnight at a ‘at Dracula’s ’ kind of village, where a village is being restored from amongst rocks and ruins.

A man is just like a dew drop in a leaf – it shines bright like a diamond, like a morning star and then it’s gone, leaving behing footprints of memories…

Today’s number is 26+ km.

P.S. I had a chance to look my fears in the eye. They’ve got an eye of an eagle.

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Ir dienas, kad smaids tā neraisās, kā gribētos. Nē, par pašu dienu liels prieks un gandarījums, bet nepadarītie darbi spiež pie zemes. Izrādās, es tik daudz ko neprotu, kam paprasīt nav, bet jāizdara ir. Var jau krist gar zemi, brēkt, bet lietas no tā netiks padarītas.

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Mārtiņi. Aizveras veļu vārti. Uz brīdi pasaule paliek klusumā. Starp bija un būs. Tāds dzidrs, skanīgs mirklis – tagadne. Iededzu sveces saviem veļiem, lai gaišs ceļš, gluži kā atmiņas, kas paliek manā sirdī, domās.

Aiz loga tumša debesis bez mākoņu pogaļām, daudz, daudz zvaigžņu, un tikai 6 grādi. Nudien, sajūta, ka sals tūlīt iekniebs degunā.

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“Nosēdēt vari?”, un, nesagaidot manu atbildi, Lilija kā no ložmetēja sāk bērt vārdu pupas par visiem jaunumiem, kas notikuši manu gandrīz divu nedēļu slimošanas laikā. Nosēdēt varu, galva vietā, un ļoti gribas sauli un siltumu. Šodien pilnīga Paradīze – viegls, lēns vējiņš un sita, mīļa saulīte: +24. Tā kā pie stūres sēsties vēl neriskēju, Lilija stūrē savu mazo Reno, kuru lepni sauc par Mercedes. Pēc mazas apspriedes nolēmām, ka brauksim uz patālo Villaviciosas pludmali Rodiles, kas ir ar plašu smilšaino pludmali un labām pastaigu vietām.

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Mani pirmie nopietnie viesi pošas mājup. Atvadīšanās, tās vienmēr, kaut nedaudz, bet ienes smeldzi, un, pavadot ar acīm auto, domāju, kā tālāk viss iegrozīsies, vai jaukajam pārim būs vēl tā iespēja atbraukt. Palika tik daudz neapskatīta, neparādīta. Manas pārdomas pārtrauc Lilijas zvans, viņai šonedēļ garās brīvdienas, un tas jau pa gabalu smaržo pēc lieliem piedzīvojumiem.